THERE WAS A TIME

 

There was a time when I thought I was wise

When folly was indeed my companion

A time when I couldn't  differentiate seasons

Only Present existed; Future and Past were not considered 

A time of folly but not entirely a wasted time. 

There was a time when I couldn't have fun

Because I was scared of hurting myself and others 

When in fact I didn't know the correct definition of fun

I soon discovered that "playing safe" never guarantees "being safe"

A time of discovering the right definitions to abused concepts. 

There was a time when I thought I had found love

Love was indeed findable but not by me

I lacked the required tools for this hunt

But was passionately blinded to this truth

A time when I found the appearance of love but alas it was lust. 

There was a time when I wanted to be loved and accepted 

Because I felt less of a person

A time when I strived to be among the big boys 

Instead of being a better version of myself.

A time when inferiority complex consumed my creativity. 

There was a time when I believed I had known all of God

Because I felt so high and mighty and knowledgeable

I had not the slightest idea of how enormous He is

How little was my understanding 

A time of high passion mixed with little wisdom. 

There was a time when I presumed God to be a fearsome Tyrant

So filled with dark secrets and needed  not to be questioned

For they said "no man can question God"

A time when I didn't understand the worth and value of His precepts 

It was a time when I was the dark one who couldn't see the Light.

Par: Sambasy